Something I’ve been struggling a lot with recently is feeling lonely. It’s about weird really, and I don’t really understand it nor like it. It’s just sort of like, even when I am surrounded by my friends or my family, I’m not really “there”. I mean, physically I am there, but I’m struggling to feel like part of the group a lot.
It’s sort of like when you think you’ve found people who are similar to you and you fit in with, they understand you and then after a while everyone starts to change and develop their friendships but I’m just sort of stuck in the past being the same old me wishing things could go back to how they were. I guess it’s like feeling disconnected? I don’t know. But it’s always in the back of my mind, this fuzzy thought that I don’t belong here or fit in, and that’s probably the reason why I keep feeling like this because I don’t allow myself to adapt to changing social situations and group dynamics, not because I don’t want to but because I don’t know how.
It’s just..quite frustating I guess, because now I’m sort of stuck back in the same place I was a few months ago before I’d made new friends. And now it’s like a never ending cycle of feeling alone and “outside”.
Yeah not the most cheerful post,sorry about that, I just needed to put this down in words in the hope that it might disperse some of the fog that’s currently clouding over my mind.
Hope you’re all doing well. 😊